New Years Resolution

So I am not one to usually make resolutions when a year ends, but this year I feel I need to do that.


My New Years Resolution is to decide what I want to do with my life and take steps to get there. Why? Because this year has been full of me searching for and working at jobs that I have hated. I have not found the fulfillment I had when I was in ministry in any job I have had this year.


My year in Review:
I started this year working and living in Texas. I worked for a Medical Research Consultant going over medical files for legal cases.
In March I met and got unofficially engaged to James Wolfkill. (total mistake on my part)
April James got put in jail and I figured out just how much he had stolen from me.
May 1st I moved back to NC
May I started looking for jobs and auditioned for Godspell and reconnected with Emily, Elizabeth, and Erin
June and July I had practice for Godspell (I played Robin) and search for jobs
August I got two jobs. 1) Baker at Cake Shop, 2) Teach Support for ACS
September I spent all my time working
October I helped throw a Baby shower for Emily and worked
November I had my 28th Birthday, met John (my boyfriend), and started having issues with the way things were done at ACS
December lost my job at ACS and started looking for work again.

Meet Rosey!

I never thought I would love 2 am so much as I do when I hear a little bark or howl from the crate that sits close to my bed.

Rosey came into me and my brothers life in a wonderful and unexpected way. We have been looking for a rescue dog for about two months now and David just could not get over wanting a Bernese Mountain Dog. We found two other rescue ones before Rosey but they both fell through. Two weeks ago a person from the Bernese Mountain Dog Club of the Blue Ridge Mountains sent out a plee for a home for a 8 week old puppy. Rosey needed a home with no stairs and a back yard where she can play and run and be safe. She has what is call hip Dyspepsia.

So here we are two weeks later with 8 week old Rosey being the love of our lives. She is funny, sweet, and has her own little personality.

For Realz

First off Happy Wear a Dress Voting Day!

So for the past month I have been working towards becoming a full agent at my job. After fighting myself on learning to sell things over the phone I am coming out of my month of learning lab. What is amazing about this for me is that I am not only graduating for a full agent, but I will get a $140 bonus this month for my sales and my customer service!!! For Real I have made it and I am getting extra.

As I got all excited about it this weekend someone of my friends call me out on the way I say "for real." Apparently it comes out "For Realz!" I laughed my butt off as they then began to quote the section at the beginning of the I like Big Butts song. To make you see how funny this is, the people doing it are guys. Not only just guys but guys who are all about being manly and big and bad. It cracked me up to no end. They called me a total valley girl and I could not believe how funny I thought it all was.

So Like Totally For Realz I Graduated!

Working Woes

Well I made it. I am not working on the floor as a Sprint Teach Support Service Specialist. Needless to say I am still in training just a different type. Learning Lab is a place where new agents work and have a little extra support. This may sound good, but here are my woes.

I have a new Supervisor. She is kind of crazy. She wants us to graduate Learning Lab by the 15th, of this month! Learning Lab is a 30 day process and that is only 15 days. Second if sales scores are not above red by next week I'll get written up. Sales is not our number 1 or 2 priority. The worse of all is my new schedule lets me spend zero time with family and friends. I work 2pm-10:30 get home and try to unwind which takes a few hours and then sleep 8 or 9 hours a night. Thus I get up shower get a few things done and go back to work.


However, there are a few good things. I have 100% IR, customer service and I earned 50 sales points last night.

Almost There!

First off happy WDT everyone!


Since August 23rd I have been in training for my new job as Sprint Technical Support. This has been trying as I have had to sit in a classroom for around 8 hours a day. To make matters worse I have the same trainer for all 8 hours, but they did change trainers on us two weeks ago, which is good and bad. So I have 4 more days of training to go. Saturday I start the first part of my job on the floor. I am so excited to move on to the next phase of this job. To make this transition even better, my new trainer has recommended me to become a trainer or mentor to new people!


OK my other almost there moment is I will finally get a new phone tomorrow. I have hit my 2 year mark and am eligible for a new phone if I sign on with Verizon again. I know I know I work for Sprint, but not really. I work for a company called ACS and I get the same discount with Verizon as Sprint and I like Verizon. So Tomorrow I get to go to the store and pick out a brand new phone, I am thinking the LG Android phone.

New Job and Perks

The HTC EVO

One of the many perks of my new job is getting to play with phones like this while I am supposed to be learning how to trouble shoot Sprint phones.

Two weeks ago I interview and was offered a job at ACS as a customer service agent for their Sprint campaign. ACS is a Fortune 500 company that is part of the Xerox corporation. As a part of the Sprint campaign I will be trouble shooting all Sprint phones and devices. Which also means great savings on Sprint plans and phones. As a non-Sprint person I was like what can I do with this. I found out I also get discounts with Verizon, AT&T, and T-Mobil. How cool is that? The perks keep going and going. Right now I am in training in a class for 32 days. Then I will be out on the floor trouble shooting in another type of training for 60 days. ACS really wants to make sure we have the best training possible so that we will succeed. The only somewhat bad part about the job is the hours, 3pm-12am.

Back in the Swing of Things

I feel like life is coming back together for me. I start working as a customer service agent at ACS on Monday. I'll be working 40 hours a week. The other great thing is I am going to be getting back into the ministry as a volunteer. My churches youth group has asked me to step up and help out. This is very exciting for me as I already love the youth I have meet and have missed being in ministry.

Last Vacation For A While

This past weekend I got to spend some amazing time at my parents new beach house. My mom and I took off early Saturday morning for Topsail Island on the coast of North Carolina. We spent the morning cleaning the house and then headed out the back door to our beach yard. Yes our back yard at the house is the beach. Gotta love hearing the waves at all times. As we sat, swam, and sunned I began to just enjoy the fact that this was my place. I have always loved the beach and enjoyed going with family, friends, and church groups over the years. Now I have a place that I can go to any time I want, when it is not rented.

I have claimed a room at the house as my own. It is full of light houses. For me I have always thought of light houses as a symbol of God. Lighting our way to the safe places and guiding us on our way.

OK so back to the beach part. On the beach in front of our place is a turtle nest! We will be having baby turtles sometime in the middle of September. Sadly I will not be able to be there. I got a new job last week at a call center doing customer service. I don't have two days in a row off unless I take a day off. So this weekend was my last real vacation for a while. I found out that the crabs will eat the turtle eggs. It made me sad. Then Rocky started chasing the crabs all over the beach. I told him he is now on baby turtle nest security.

Sunday a family friend and our vet brought her kids out and we flew kites. I have not done that since I was probably 8 years old. It was so much fun, but my bright red legs are now telling me I should have reapplied more often. We went to eat and then just hung out the rest of the night. Mom and I headed home around 5 am today. I am going to miss the beach.

Theam Song

The past few week, day, well months I have been feeling so defeated. I decided I needed a theam song to make me feel better. So here it is. I will keep going and God will get me through this.

Alone Time

As I have been out of my parents house for almost ten years before my return in May I had many times alone to think, sleep, play, pray, ect. Now that I am back home I am realizing just how much I loved those times. The times when it was just me and the dog(s). The days when I could just relax and take times to myself to go over everything that was going on in my life or just sit and watch tv all day without interruption from anyone. Now I would given anything for a day to myself. Time to think, feel, or just relax without someone else in the house. Every Friday I get half a day of my alone time as everyone is working until my grandfather gets home from volunteering at 1pm. I have found that Fridays are my favorite day because I do get my alone time. Get me on this I am a totally extrovert, but I do have introvert tendencies. I love being around people, but come on we all need some alone time.

Prayer and Rememberance

As most of you know I am in a production of Godspell. Our first performance is tomorrow night at 8pm. These past two weeks have been hard on everyone in the play with rehearsals until after 10 pm and all day practice Saturday. As everyone is a little on edge last nights practice took a turn for the worse. Our Jesus could not remember most of his line and ended up kind of throwing a little fit. Everyone was shocked and well we kept trying to go on as best we could. At the end of practice last night I asked if I could pray for our group. I prayed for our strength, rest, and being able to remember all our lines, songs, and dances.

As I prayed I began to cry. I began to remember how much I loved praying over groups of people in a church. How prayer can being me so close to God. I really do miss being in ministry. Working with people and helping them in their faith journey is my calling. Now I just have to figure out how I can do that and be happy again.

Godspell and interviews

For the past few weeks my life has felt like I have, well, no life. All my time has been consumed by practice for Godspell and preparing for interviews. I am finally getting interviews, so please understand I am not complaining.

Godspell start on the 22 so it is less than 7 days away. It is amazing and freaky at the same time. This past week I have been at practice every night from 7-10pm. I proved once again how clumsy I can been by falling up the risers on the stage. Yes I said up the risers. Yet, I am loving being part of something big right now.

Interviews are going well. I have had three in the past three weeks. All at Duke or Duke affiliated places. Every one for very different positions. I am enjoying getting to improve my interview skills, but am getting tired of interviewing. It feels like I will never get a job at times. Yet, I know there will be something eventually.

It's a Girl!!!!

So excited for my friends Emily and Brian. Today I got the long awaited for news. Their baby is a girl. Emily is due on Thanksgiving, so up until now we have called the baby butterball. We also got the amazing news that the baby is healthy and does not have spina bifida. What a wonderful day! Now I get to go baby girl shopping and plan what I know will be the most amazing baby shower ever.

Living With Mistakes

Today I received another reminder of the mistakes I made in Texas. I got the first bill for my wedding dress. Unfortunately I used the money I made selling the dress to pay my last months rent at my old place, so I had to ask for help. That was not easy for me. I had to finally tell my parents I had bought a wedding dress and what had happened to it. All my mom could say is that she was happy to help pay off the dress because she would not be helping me pay for a divorce and recover from that since I left my ex.

How did I deserve a family that would be so accepting of my mistakes. Only God know how many I would make in my life and somehow put me with the right parents.

Three Things I Pray

This summer I have been involved in the musical Godspell. It is a production between a few different UMC churches in my home town. I am playing the role of Robin, who sings Day By Day and is the first to really accept Jesus as who he really is. It has been fun getting to be around other people who love music and acting as much as I do. I have not done a play or musical since I was in college and now I am finding that I should not have stopped. Enjoyment and love do not even show how much I feel about being a part of something like Godspell again.

So I have been contemplating my character this past week. Who is Robin? I know from the script that Robin is a tomboy and the first to accept Jesus for who he is, but there is more to Robin. She is strong, outgoing, and loving. As I started to think about these and other attributes of Robin I began to see how much I have in common with my character. However, there is one things I wish I were more like Robin in. I want to pray like Robin and believe like her. My prayer are so complicated at time. In the song Day By Day Robin prays for three things.

1) To see God more clearly
2) Love God more dearly
3) Follow God more nearly

I want my prayer to be that simple. I want to be that simple. I know that Robin is just a charter made up by Stephen Schwartz, but she is a role model to me in her prayer. I wonder if Schwartz based the character of Robin on someone he knew?

The Stink!

Ok let me start off by saying I really don't like sermons on Graduate Celebration Sunday. Yesterday was just such a Sunday. However, for the first time in a long time I actually found the sermon interesting. It was entitled JOY! I was like ok this is going to be interesting. Let me just say I was totally right.

Miss Laura (Rev. Laura Early) was visiting preacher. She is an interesting character herself, so one know that any sermon she gives is going to be different. Let me just say I felt like I was back in a cowboy church is Texas. She stood up at the front with her cowboy boots and her robe. It was so cute. So now that I have set the scene here is the story. Laura started with stories about what her horses taught her. One taught her to hold on tight, one taught her that sometime you gotta let go and let God, and another taught her about The Stink.

The Stink was my favorite illustration of all. Laura has this horse she loves to watch. Everyday he comes out of his stable and breaths in the air. He takes his time just enjoying life. However, that is not the best part about him. This horse takes massive poops. Laura said in the winter you can see them steam and even smell the nasty stink. The horse does not care about his massive poops. He just moves around them and walks away. Laura said this is what we need to do more in life. We get into some type of stink and then we usually look at it, call our friends to see it and gossip about it. Rather than doing these things we need to walk away just like her horse.

So I ask you. What is the stink you need to get away from?

Christmas In May

My family has been involved for many years with Bernese Mountain Dogs and clubs that support them. We even helped form a club here in North Carolina. The Blue Ridge Bernese Mountain Dog Club has come a far way in the years since it started. However, we still have many traditions like Christmas in May.

This weekend my mom and I took off for Christmas in May picnic. We of course took one of our Bernese Mountain Dogs, Morgen, and my little Pomeranian, Rocky A.K.A. the Berner want to be. We took two White Elephant presents for the gift exchange and I found a huge stuffed Bernese Mountain Dog at Target for the raffle. I had not been able to go to one of our Berner days in a long time so it was interesting to meet the new people and reconnect with the ones I already knew. Morgen of course was her normal sweet as can be self, while Rocky finally realized he was not top dog. We had a good time having fun with the dogs and playing games. We ate good food, I brought a chocolate cheesecake. We came away from the raffle with a Duke dog leash, an "I love my Bernese Mountain Dog" car magnet, and homemade dog treats. From the White elephant exchange we came home with a $15 gift card to Pet Smart and a real looking chipmunk toy.

The highlight of the day for me though was the meeting. I knew how boring am I. The Bernese Mountain Dog Club of America (BMDCA) has finally recognized our little club and we are real! Secondly BMDCA has asked all regional clubs to have a person in charge of getting medical information about research foundations that are working to help Bernese Mountain Dogs and all breeds. This include Histo, which is a form of cancer my family has lost 3 dogs to. The exciting part for me was being elected as the regional person in charge of the medical research. I now get to help other people and dogs in a new and different way.

"You Are NOT Alone"..... God

Over this past week I have felt very alone. Change that over this past month. So much has happened in my life. I have moved back home, been diagnosed with a disease I will deal with the rest of my life, searched for jobs daily, and lost someone that mattered more than anything in the world to me and that I had not even met.

As all this has come upon me I have felt more and more alone. Then I started getting this feeling that God was telling me I am not alone. I have reconnected with Emily, a girl from high school. We disliked each other very much in high school and now we are hanging out and talking like best friends. I have been in contact with another person who is awaiting her diagnosis of the same disease I have. I pray she does not have it, yet I don't see how she cannot have it. Finally, this past week two of my favorite shows had the same topic. The same thing happening to the two main characters as happened to me last week. I know it is just TV, but I felt like God was using these shows to tell me I am not alone in this. God has been giving me these friendships and these shows to tell me and show me just how Loved I am by the God who has known me since before I was born.

College Friend Weekend

This weekend I decided to head up to Asheville and spend time with some college friends. I got to stay with my best friend from college, Elizabeth. She has this adorable little house in Black Mountain.

We started out the weekend by having a girls night. We dressed up and went into Asheville and had dinner at Carrabba's. Then we went and delivered brownies to her boyfriend and the guys playing poker. We rented movies and watched TV. It was such a good night.

Saturday we put up a fence in her dogs enclosure, which I might add did not work. We got a phone call in the middle of our work from Jennifer. She was on her way to Mars Hill for her sister-in-laws ordination the next day. She wanted to meet us for lunch. So we all went out for lunch and I got to meet her new boyfriend Mike. Elizabeth and I then watched one of the movies we rented. We meet with Alicia and Ben and went to coffee around 8 pm. Then finished out night walking around Downtown Asheville with Brandon and Aaron, Elizabeth's boyfriend and his brother.

Today We went to church. Then had subway, a tradition going back to college. Finally we went back to her house and watched our other movie before I had to go home.

Conclusions from this weekend. I miss my friends, but loved spending time with them. I am enjoying being back in North Carolina and cannot tell you how much I love it here. Finally I am going to be good and eventually go back into ministry.

Baptist, Methodist, UCC

As I am now staying at home and not having to worry about too many bills, rent, or food I can spend time figuring out my life. This for me means taking the next year off from ministry and finding a denomination that will support me in ministry. As I am back in North Carolina I am finding this a little harder. First off I am not Texas Baptist anymore and will not be licensed at the end of this summer. Second I am living in a house with my Grandfather, who is die hard Methodist. Third I have no clue what I am doing, I just know I am called.

So my first step was to meet with the soon to be ordained Rev. Owen Barrow. He is a good friend of mine who is associated pastor at my families church. We sat down and talked about everything that happened in Texas. My finally decision that if I am to stay Methodist I am going deacon track. Then how staying Methodist is probably not the best idea. I do not have the best file and it is going to be difficult if not impossible to ever be ordained because of my file. Yes I have been shown my file and it is not good. So the next thing out of Owen's mouth was "how do you feel about Congregationalist Baptists?" I kind of looked at him stupid and said I was sure no Baptists in North Carolina ordained women. Well they do! I explained to Owen that I did not agree with the theology totally. Then we went through the other big denominations and I said I have been thinking about UCC. This shocked Owen as he did not know I was as lgbtq friendly as I am.

Now over the past two days I have been doing research on the UCC congregations in my area. Sadly most of them are not involved in the "God Still Speak" campaign and are not open congregations. The closest one that I liked from the web page is in Chapel Hill, a 30-40 min drive. Then today I was on facebook and saw a post by Bridget about becoming a fan of The Association of Welcoming and Affirming Baptists . I asked her about it and got information and found a cool liturgical congregation just one town away. I also then checked out the Congregationalist Baptists and decided on checking out two different congregations right here by me.

Now here is the questions Baptist, Methodist, or UCC?

You Can Go Home Again

For many years I have made one statement; I will never go home again to live. I have even gone as far as to keep myself in Houston for 5 months living off my savings earlier this year because I could not get a job. Now here I am living back in North Carolina with my family. So far it is not too bad. I have reconnected with two friends from high school, who I had not talked to in almost 8 years. I have been interviewing almost every day for jobs. Just trying to keep myself busy so that I don't miss Texas too much. The best part of being home is I got to spend my dad's birthday with him yesterday. I have not done that in many years and he was very happy to have me around.

When it rains, it pours

The past week and a half I have heard this saying a lot about my life. When it rains, it pours!


Starting last Monday I found out James had stolen money from me. I called him out on it and he flipped and ended up hurting his hand and getting himself put in jail.


Thursday I got a call from my temp agency telling me that permanent job offer I had been offered the week before had been taken back by the agency. Thus I lost my job, because I could not do anymore temp hours for the company.


Friday my family and I decided that I only had one choice. I am moving back to North Carolina next Thursday. I am starting to become ok with this.


Today my car would not start. I took it to the shop and now I will be spending $1300, that I don't have, to replace the ignition, the belt, and the cooling fan!


Usually I don't like using saying unless they refer to God's Blessing. However in my life this past week and a half, When it rains it will pour!

How to Save a Life

So just for starter James and I broke up. I will not put all the horrible details on here but feel free to message me on facebook and I'll let you know. I count this number who knows what on my life saving campaign.




Ever since I was a small child my family has teased me about taking in lost animals, hurting people, and causes that need support. My mom calls this my "how to save a life campaign." I have always wanted to help people and I guess that explains part of my calling into ministry. As a young child I was friends with people who no one else wanted to be friends with. I would bring hurt frogs, birds, and well whatever I could find home with me to try and save. This to my parents became quite annoying. As I grew up I continued to do many of the same things. I was friends with people who did not have friends. Instead of bringing home animals I volunteered. I also added a new thing as a teen, dating guys who had problems. I guess I always though that in some way I could help them. I dated drug addicts, alcoholics, people with family issues, or just issues in general. This caused me to forgive many things people did to me. I gave so many chances and tried never to give up. In college I did the same thing. Became friends with people no one wanted to be friends with and dated guys who were totally wrong with me. In Seminary I started with the animals again. I brought home two dogs. Onyx now lives with a cousin of mine who I gave her to and Lynn who died last year. Since moving to Houston I have adopted my share of people who need help. Friends and acquaintances. I thought I was done with dating guys who were totally wrong with me. Haha I guess not. So now I ask how do I save a life without hurting myself in the process?

Parents Visit and Sweet 16

Gotta love having the parents visit when there is a Duke Game.

Last weekend my parents came down from NC to visit me and James. They had been planing this for a while and none of us had any clue that Duke would make the Sweet 16 or Elite Eight.

As Luck would have it Duke did make the games in Houston, of all places. My mom made a call to my grandfathers best friend, an Iron Duke and got us tickets in row 42. Which was really close to the court action.

Unfortunately for me I ended up in the ER the day of the Duke Sweet 16 game and could not go ( I hate really bad kidney infection). So mom, dad, and James got to spend some quality time together. Luckily to say they LOVE James now!

Sunday I got to go to the Game against Baylor. We had a complete blast watching Duke win. All of us had a great day. Mom and I ended up going out to dinner with one of my mom's old co-workers. James and dad ate pizza and wings at home and to top that off James asked for my hand in marriage!

I have the best Boyfriend

Let me first mention that my parents are coming into town for a visit tonight. They will be staying from tonight until Monday. As I got ready for my usual cleaning ritual before the parents get here I started to have immense pain in my lower back. I decided to ignore it and press on. That was yesterday. Today I was in so much pain that I tried to do work, quite doing work, took a bubble bath, and finally decided to call my PCP and ended up at an urgent care. As I was in so much pain James decided that he would clean for me! He did such a good job and is trying really hard to keep me comfortable until my pain pill kicks in. He ordered Chinese, cleaned the whole apartment, walked Rocky, and even drove with me to the pharmacy. I gotta love a man who will do all that!

Knock on the Door

The past two weeks have been a complete and total blur. I answered my door two weeks ago to a guy selling magazines. However, he never even got his sales pitch out. All he could say was "Hi my names is James, and you're amazingly beautiful." I just about drooped dead. He told me he was going around meeting people in the neighborhood. I just kept thinking that this guy better live in Houston and be single. We stood outside my apartment talking for three hours that day and have not left each others side since, unless it was forced for work and such. James and I have been together for over two weeks now and loving every minute of it.


James decided that he wants to settle down and get his life a little more straight. We have spent the last week in Dallas and he is moving back to Houston with me tomorrow. We have decided that we are going to move to Dallas in a few weeks because I can do my work from Dallas and it will be easier for him to get a job there.

Church Questioning and Answers

Over the past few weeks I have had a lot of questions come to me about my church choice. These came from me and from a few friends. Why am I Baptist? Can a woman be a minister? What about infant baptism as a Chaplain?

For a while I thought about these questions on my own and talk with my mom about my conclusions. First off I am Baptist because I like the church, the pastor, the mission, and the singles group. Second I had not seen a woman do anything in the church service so I had no clue if women were even allowed to do anything in the service. Third I need to ask my pastor about infant baptism and if it is not possible for me to do I probably need a new denomination.

Now today I had a few questions asked at church. I joined the choir last week and had to go to a different service today. Yes, I can be a woman and do things in service and even be a minister. Another answer can up to be yes as well. I can do infant baptism as a Baptist Hospital Chaplain. I have now come to the conclusion that I am in the right place for me. Maybe I will someday feel the need to change denominations, but for now I am happy as a Texas Baptist.

Proud of the Saints, but Peyton Manning is my MVP

As a person living in Houston, Texas, I have become friends with many people from New Orleans. I have watch Saints games, and been supportive of my friends. Tonight as a support for them I cheered on the Saints against the Colts. I just hope that the Win tonight brings about some good change on mind in New Orleans.

However, as proud of the Saints as I am Peyton Manning will always be my MVP. Why is this since I am a die hard Steelers fan and this year have been cheering for the Saints with my friends? About 7 years ago Peyton Manning befriended a young teenage girl with terminal brain cancer. This girl was sweet, loving, fun, and well one of the most amazing people everyone who ever meet her knew. Her name was Allison and she was/is my cousin. Allison and her family love the Colts, epically Paton! During her last year and a half alive Peyton agreed to meet Allison and he became a friend of hers. This never astonished me, since I knew what an inspirational person Allison was. He encouraged Allison to keep fight for the rest of her life. Allison died in September 2004. So to tonight Peyton Manning may not have been named MVP at the Superbowl, but he will always be MVP in my book for what he did for Allison.

Beliefs, are they right or wrong?

Tonight I set out for a friends dinner at a local Mexican restaurant and I found myself in the mist of a conversation on beliefs. This I must say was not my fault totally, but I also did not stop it. A man who is in the older singles class and I have started to become friends and he finally decided to ask me what Seminary was like. I probably started this off wrong with saying I went to a school of Theology. I also came straight out and told him it was probably more liberal than he would expect since I was Methodist when I went to seminary. At this point he looked straight at me and ask how liberal. Again not being able to keep my mouth shut I told him about some of the classes I took like Biomedical Pastoral Ethics. Hahaha, I was digging a hole. He asked about situations I had been given in my pastoral care classes and I could only think of the one I loved the most. It was a situation where I was placed as a pastor of a church that was somewhat conservative in their thinking about homosexuality and a homosexual couple came to me asking to baptise their adopted child. I just completely dug that hole to China. He asked about my feeling about homosexual people being allowed in church and I said it was a good thing. Than he asked me about child baptism. I told him I agreed with it and that I was raised in a denomination where it was done. I guess I might as well have just dug the hole thought the ozone layer and now I am out in space. He then told me I was wrong and that he thought he could change my mind. Yeah Right!!!!! I guess you could say I might not be baptist anymore if my thoughts get out.

Sinus Infection from .......

So nothing to interesting has been going on in my life because I have literally locked myself in the new apartment. I seem to think that by staying inside my sinus infection will go away. To date this has not worked, but neither have the two antibiotics I have been on this past month. I have come to decided this is all to blame on the fact that I am allergic to Cipro or that fact that my insurance will not pay for anything but urgent care, and well we all know urgent care. Now I am not saying that urgent care is not a good place to go, but come on two antibiotics and a month of a sinus infection and I am still suffering. Also can I just say I am eating almost nothing now because I am too tired from not being able to sleep. Sorry to fuss, but I am just so tired right now.

To Apply or Not to Apply

As most of you know I have been out of the ministry now for almost 6 months. In this time I have struggled to find a job, stay on my feet, keep living my life normally, and finally found a job. Now I am at a strange turning point. I am wanting to be back in ministry. I am still healing from the scars of this past year, but feel like God is telling me I need to go back into ministry. I am doing ministry in a couple different ways right now as a representative on the single adult board at my church, co-coordinating Third Thursday Westend Food Pantry, and just little things I am doing in everyday life.

However, In all of this I have felt so many things missing. I still desire to be a hospital chaplain, I desire to work with children, and I miss being in ministry all the time. I decided to check out a few things on the ACPE (association for clinical pastoral education) and saw that there are a lot of opening for next year. I talked to my pastor for a moment before church and he said to use him as my denominational reference since he will be the one licensing me for ministry. So the big question is: do I apply or not?

Working from Home?!?!

So as I told everyone in my last blog I got a new job. I have finished my training and I am now working from home. The only question is whether or not this is going to be good for me. I love being able to be around Rocky all day, take my 15 min breaks to just go out walking, and love the freedom I feel I am getting. The only problem is the freedom. Yes freedom is a good and bad thing. My full first day at home I work up with a horrible migraine and could barely get up. So I data mined 300 pages and went back to bed for a few hours as my medication set in. Now I did end up working for seven hours that day, but did not do nearly as much as I did when I was working in the office. It seems this being able to not be as productive as I was at work has started to be a trend. I have gotten all my hours in, but I just feel like I am not as productive.

As for the new apartment it is wonderful and I will post pictures as rooms become unpacked and arranged.

New Years Resoultuions and New Apartments

First off let me tell you I got this from my wonderful friend Sarah. I have not made a resolution in a few years. This year after reading Sarah's blog and hearing things on the radio (KSBJ my Christian Station) I decided it was time to take the plunge. My resolution is to focus more on myself and my happiness and worry less. I know this is like totally selfish but here goes my reasoning. Over the past few years I have not been putting enough effort into really looking after myself. My way of fixing this is 1) Move out of my apartment, 2) start seeing a counselor once I get my new benefits from my new job, 3) volunteer for an organization I care about, 4) focus on what makes me happy. I may not be able to do all these things, but my goal is to at least concurre three of them this year.

Lets start with Goal 1. I am moving again! Craziness, but it needed to happen. My roommate is getting married and I find that living here although nice, has reminded me of why I need to continue to move on. I signed a lease agreement yesterday on a new apartment. It is two bed, two bath apartment that is decent sized. Why two bedrooms? One is going to become my office/book space. I am starting training for a full time job on Monday. Yes, I am already working for the company, but they are now training me to be completely hired on full time instead of being a temp! I will be working from home, so I needed a space just to my work and, well as all people who have gone to Candler know, the alarming amount of books I have. This is also going to serve as a guest bedroom. I move in to my new place next Saturday, so I am completely thrill. As I see it Goal one shall be concurred as of next weekend!

Now if I can only start thinking about ways to get those other three parts of my New Years Resolution done.