My Heart Longs....

Every year around this time for the past few years my heart begins to wander. I go back to the summer of 2006 and the passion I had. I go back to Emory University Medical Center and see myself walking the halls and people looking at me for guidance. It was a hard, wonderful, and blessed time in my life. It was a time when my calling into hospital Chaplaincy was confirmed. I found pleasure in just stopping to talk with the staff, and help families find even a small sense of peace. Since than I have been told my calling was not real and my sense of confirmation that summer was wrong. You see if I had been more true to my calling and not done work in the church, where I was not called to, I might be where I longed. I might be doing my residency. I could be an ordained Chaplin even. This is the time of year where Hospitals in NC start interviewing candidates for residency in the chaplin program. I long to be one of them.

5!!!

So this week is a week of 5's for me.

1)I am down 5 pounds in 3 weeks! So proud that I am sticking to this. It has been hard and as I sit here typing I am waiting for John to come over for dinner and I am HUNGRY!

2) 5 weeks and 5 days until the Wedding! I am getting excited and stressed and a number of other feelings right now.

Tomorrow should be fun, my Bridal Shower. I will post pictures sometime in the next week. I am also looking forward to a wonderful weekend with my best friend from college who should be here in a few hours.