My Heart Longs....

Every year around this time for the past few years my heart begins to wander. I go back to the summer of 2006 and the passion I had. I go back to Emory University Medical Center and see myself walking the halls and people looking at me for guidance. It was a hard, wonderful, and blessed time in my life. It was a time when my calling into hospital Chaplaincy was confirmed. I found pleasure in just stopping to talk with the staff, and help families find even a small sense of peace. Since than I have been told my calling was not real and my sense of confirmation that summer was wrong. You see if I had been more true to my calling and not done work in the church, where I was not called to, I might be where I longed. I might be doing my residency. I could be an ordained Chaplin even. This is the time of year where Hospitals in NC start interviewing candidates for residency in the chaplin program. I long to be one of them.