Nerves or Too Much Caffeine

So I have not been sleeping well the past few nights. I have to wonder if it is all the caffeine I have been drinking to have energy at work, or if it is nerves. I feel like I have so much left to do for the wedding. I am not sure I am going to finish everything, but then again I wonder if it even matters. The point of the day is my marriage to John not the day being perfect.

My Heart Longs....

Every year around this time for the past few years my heart begins to wander. I go back to the summer of 2006 and the passion I had. I go back to Emory University Medical Center and see myself walking the halls and people looking at me for guidance. It was a hard, wonderful, and blessed time in my life. It was a time when my calling into hospital Chaplaincy was confirmed. I found pleasure in just stopping to talk with the staff, and help families find even a small sense of peace. Since than I have been told my calling was not real and my sense of confirmation that summer was wrong. You see if I had been more true to my calling and not done work in the church, where I was not called to, I might be where I longed. I might be doing my residency. I could be an ordained Chaplin even. This is the time of year where Hospitals in NC start interviewing candidates for residency in the chaplin program. I long to be one of them.

5!!!

So this week is a week of 5's for me.

1)I am down 5 pounds in 3 weeks! So proud that I am sticking to this. It has been hard and as I sit here typing I am waiting for John to come over for dinner and I am HUNGRY!

2) 5 weeks and 5 days until the Wedding! I am getting excited and stressed and a number of other feelings right now.

Tomorrow should be fun, my Bridal Shower. I will post pictures sometime in the next week. I am also looking forward to a wonderful weekend with my best friend from college who should be here in a few hours.

Small Victory

I have been very quiet about the process I have been going through the past few months. I applied and was accepted into a weight loss study that is being done at Duke. I was so excited as I went through the process of meetings, blood draws, and finally group selection. Than the hammer came down. I was selected for the control group which has no help loosing weight other than conventional means for two years. I still get to do the study and in two years I get the weight loss intervention. As I went through acceptance of this I asked many questions of the nurse and found out that I could do weight watchers, jenny craige, or a number of other weight loss programs.

I finally decided on Weight Watchers. I have done it before with a little success, but they came out with a new program. I started this program last week and I am already down 2.4 lbs. My goal is 15lbs before the wedding. I have 60 days to go so I am in hopes this goal is acheviable.

What I ask is for anyone who reads this to keep me motivated. I know I can do this and I can become a healthier person.

Two Months from Today

I am Two Months and counting it down. By this time two months from today I will be Mrs Kaisinger! I have been planing and planing this wedding and I am just about done. I could not be happier about this than I am right now.

However, If today is any indication of how the wedding will go I will pass out. Both of the dogs are sick and I had to take off work to take Rocky to the vet. NO sickness on my wedding day please.

Irene made me Productive

So living in North Carolina has it's downfalls.... Hurricanes. Yesterday after the third most crazy day of work ever at Thundershirt ( The 2 days before the 4th of July were worse)I went and got my dogs and headed to my parents. I wanted to make sure if anything happened with Irene that my mom had all the help she needs. She just had thyroid cancer removed last week and is very weak. So my only plan was to maybe clean and relax the Irene away.





What happened instead. I went to see my wedding flower mockup and well it is going to be amazing. John even loves them :). I cleaned my mom's house. Made decorations for my final cake class in the Wilton series. I will post picture tomorrow. I went shopping for things a woman wears under her wedding dress (aka a long line bra). Finally I finished shopping for my bridesmaids. I felt so very productive for a crazy windy day.

A Night of a Few of My Favorit Things

So Monday John and I decided to try out a new restaurant we found on restaurant.com. It is called Blue Note Grill. It was advertised as having Texas style BBQ, so we were both totally excited to try this out (John grew up from 2-11 years of age in the Houston area). Needless to say we were not let down about the Texas BBQ. I was literally licking my finger by the end of dinner. Oh Texas BBQ how I have missed you and love that I now have you back in my life.


When we got there a band was setting up. All I could think is sweet a little music with dinner. To my surprise it was a really good Jazz group. They did fun music the whole time and I totally love the whole experience. I also found out they have Jazz, Blues, and Big Band style music playing EVERY NIGHT!!!!! Needless to say I will be going back and will drag John with me.


When we got back to my house John and I turned on the TV to look for something to watch and he let me watch Hell's Kitchen for two hours. I am so in love with this wonderful man who will put up with my addiction to Hell's Kitchen. I just hope he can stand Grey's Anatomy.